突然觉得很累，看完珠光宝气后似乎有所领悟，原来恨一个人真的很痛苦。我想学会放下，放下这沉重的包俯。我太在乎别人怎么看我，时常猜想别人对我的看法，种种的猜测让我无时无刻的活在痛苦里。付出不需要回报,这我理解, 但付出了不被感激, 反而被人误会我一点都不明白,为什么不能从我的出发点想,我所谓的好都被别人说为一文不值的垃圾。我不想再为别人而活，我要为我自己而活。 别人的眼光我不想理会，我会以衡量自己与别人的出发点去做我认为最适当的选择。 如果你不认同我的做法，那不好意思，你我的想法有太大的距离。我不敢说我做的选择全是正确的，但请你在怪我之前从我的出发点想，如果你是我，你会怎么做。现在，我只是想做好我自己。。。。。。

It’s getting more and more irritating, I began to dislike her and now I begin to hate her. i have never come across this kinda people till I really cannot stand her, what she did is damn childish, SUCKS!!! If you don’t like somebody, please don’t pretend in front of him/her, whine in front of him/her, just walk off and keep your big mouth shut! It’s super annoying! Don’t think that you know me well, don’t ever judge me cause you don’t have the rights to do so. Please boost up yourself as your thinking is immature. Bloody hell!

Tired, tired…. I’m currently posted to paediatric ward, this ward is damn boring, there isn’t much things to do, unlike TTSH. We, student nurses can stand there doing nothing for most of the time. It’s killing me man, I can’t stand down there doing nothing. It’s really more tiring standing and doing nothing than busy with stuffs all the time =( My leg around my ankle is in pain, guess that my sprained ankle didn’t really heal well. Seriously need a good pair of surgical stocking to prevent varicose vein and promote blood circulation. Lalala. Can’t wait to go back Ipoh during CNY, I miss my mom’s cooking. I want to eat till I gain weight though I’m already getting heavier, duh, who cares, as long as my weight doesn’t exceed 50kg. I miss the baby boy, he is just cute though he stepped on my shoes a couple of times. Oh I fall in love with toddlers, should I have my own baby in the future? Hmmm back to sec 5, I told my friends that i did not want to get married and have babies, haha that’s so dumb. Would I change my mind one day? Maybe…if I found my Mr Right. Anyway it’s still far to go, better go for a good sleep now to resolve my tiredness.

p/s: Finally he recognised me as his princess =) Happy

Cycling @ east coast park

Went cycling in East Coast Park last Friday after school, it was really a tiring day. I’m having a phobia of cycling now, guess that I won’t be cycling for half a year. All thanks to da jie that I have to cycle from East Coast Park to Changi Beach Village, that was like 20km, it took us about 4 hours for the 2 ways trips. I could felt that my legs were broken into pieces after that LONG ride. Worst still, I fell down from bicycle, didn’t know was I too tired till I bang into the fence or I dream too much =( Have a surface wound on my knee and 2 blue black, luckily it wasn’t serious, if not I’m going to suffer in pain. All thanks to Yong Quan’s contribution in cursing me to fall, your wish has come true. But I’m glad that I fell, cause I could see he is really concerned about me, what a worthy fall! He threw his bike after I fell down, with his things scattered around the floor and went forward to help me. I love you darling. But please don’t curse me anymore. Haha. Don’t ask me to cycle for this period of time, no no no!

Oh shit! Why am I so dumb! I shouldn’t buy the vegecrisp and swallowed the whole piece. Just recovered from vomiting, I shouldn’t touch oily food yet. What a good knowledge of nurse…. Rubbish!!! I am feeling so uncomfortable now, forced myself to vomit out the vegecrisp, ate 2 Mentos and my tummy still feel uncomfortable.  Sian. Why is this suddenly slipped off my mind? Why Jasline never remind me not to eat that? Opps shouldn’t blame her. I hope that I will be better soon cause I want to go cycling tomorrow. Pray hard for me =)

Again 2 “chao da” toasts. Damn it!

My face was blushing now after drinking some alcohol! Fun!

Perhaps I can get a good sleep tonight with the alcohol =)

Unlucky…

Wanted to make some toast for my breakie and ended up having two pieces of shit!!! Hell!! I spread  my bread with butter and put some sugar on it, then I put in the the toaster. After 3 minutes, I went back and there>>> two pieces of “chao da” toast appeared in front of me. I could see smoke coming out from the toaster. Damn it! I should have pay extra attention to my toaster, I shouldn’t out sugar! Sian… Have to spread another two pieces of bread, wasted. This time round, I didn’t dare to put sugar again. Wanted to go pasar malam tonight, when we almost reach there, it was like raining more and more heavily. Why am I so unlucky recently? Sigh…

Class gathering @ Kopitiam

Once again we have a class gathering yesterday at Kopitiam, I was quite impressed that 20+ people turned up ( Yu Lee, Hor Shin, Pui Yee, Shiau Peng, Peak Swee, Gee Hang, Pei Yin, Jia Yin, Kit Yien, Jet Wei, Yueh Fang, Xin Yee, Yan Hui, Jia Yu, Hui Jing, Yee Sin, Li Xin, Soh Chien, Kah Mun, Jia MIn, Shi Ying, Kar Pui, Le Fei and I < don’t know whether I miss out anyone…hmmm>) Just felt like we were back to the classroom, chatting and laughing away, teasing each other with their habits, etc. Truly like to tease Yu Lee alot, hope that you don’t mind cause you are really fun to tease at and all the best in your A levels. Glad to see Xin Yee yesterday, a future translator. Long time no see Jet Wei has become prettier, always so pretty. Though we have lots of changes in term of appearance and maybe personality, we still like buddies, truly a good bunch of friends. I was thinking how many more chances do we have the opportunity to organise another 5s2 class gathering again? I wonder…. No matter what, you all will live in my heart till eternal. Looking forward to seeing you guys once again =) All the best to the future engineers, accountants, business woman, doctors, nurses, teachers….. Take care, buddies!

ps: mun chin, this blog is for you to update about 5s2 =)

Happy birthday ,mommy! Couldn’t find any suitable things for her, so I decided to make banana chocolate chips muffin for her. I know I’m a little dumb, but fortunately I have a little talent for cooking. Being the first time for baking, I Was lucky enough to find a good recipe online. Actually I found lots of flour at home and didn’t know which one to use, I ended up using pau flour and my muffins are the able to raise, I should have use the self raising flour, my poor flat muffins! But the muffins were tasty! I gave it to my mom, hopefully she will like it =) Love ya mommy. Thanks for your tender loving care. Muacks.

Boring…..

Boring!!! I have found a part time job during this semester break, guess what is that part time job which I have accepted? No one will ever get the answer correct, TADDAA>>> is part time maid, part time maid working in my house. I was really bored, bored till I rather do house chores to kill my time. Why is Ipoh so boring? Can somebody just date me out? <sounds so desperate> Actually I have things which I can do at home, but I’m just lazy to get it started. Hell!! Whenever I’m boring, I just couldn’t stop myself from taking a nap. Anyone has any idea how to kill the time fast and effectively?

Tiny 5s2 gathering

It was great to meet up my secondary school 5S2 classmates yesterday, though we just spent 4 hours together to KTV.There are 9 of us (Shiau peng, Yee sin, Li xin, Kah mun, Soh chien, Hui jing, Shi ying, Pui pui and I, managed to hear from them, updated myself with the their recent conditions. Frankly speaking, all of us really changed a lot, either become mature in thinking or immature in taking actions, it’s really disappointed to hear that I have a friend who doesn’t really appreciate FRIENDSHIP which has been built up since secondary school, we have went through up and down and yet you showed no interest in maintaining this relationship, sad case! Now only I know I have outdated that much, I don’t know a lot of new songs, honestly I never exposed myself to new songs since I went to Singapore. This doesn’t mean I’m a book worm, I am just too engrossed to hong kong drama =) I realised that a lot of us have BGR problem either broke up or attached, girls always put in too much efforts in a relationship and in the end they are the one who get hurt badly and end up in depression. Girls, be smart in managing your emotions =) After KTV, dine in sushi king with peng, we spent RM40 in sushi, she even finished up 2 bottle of the sauce, so paiseh! It’s a pleasure to know a few of good friends here in Ipoh, there’s like no secret between us and we can talk things out without thinking using our butt. There’s no distance between us, no language barrier…. NOTHING at all. Though we just can meet once every couple of month, I hope that our friendship is long lasting, keep in touch now and then =) I love you, girls!